Tomorrow I will be 7 weeks pregnant. Today, in about 45 minutes, I will leave for my ultrasound appointment. I have been anxiously anticipating this day for the past 3.5 weeks upon discovering that we were pregnant. Since then I have had a few symptoms including frequent urination, sore breasts, acne (YUCK!), and one bout of nausea where I actually threw up. Other than that and being tired there has been little to report and often my emotions play with me and I wonder if I could really be pregnant. Luckily, according to the “What to Expect” book, I have learned that these are very normal feelings.
It is just so hard after all we have been through to get to this point, plus the overwhelming awareness of so many tragedies in our IF community and joy-filled pregnancy announcements quickly turning sour. At moments I project these stories onto my own and assume the worst for myself. I quickly try to shake myself from these thoughts. I guess it is just hard to accept that my story is my story and it will be different than every other story. The best thing I can do for myself is to keep the faith and stay positive.
It just always comes back to that for me. Hope, Faith, TRUST!
Will keep you posted!
Thank you for all of your support!!!!