Ultrasound # 1 at 6 weeks 6 days!!!!!

Our ultrasound couldn’t have gone any better.  Our baby…yep, just one…is growing beautifully and perfectly measuring right on schedule!  It was a HUGE relief.  We are so excited and it made it all so much more real!!!  We have been curious leading up to this ultrasound if we would be having 1 or 2.  When I initially received my first beta result a few weeks ago and it was 98, our RE told us at that time it would probably be just 1, but then when my beta quadrupled in 2 days, we thought maybe they had both made it.  I was really rooting for both of them…but having found out the news today, honestly, I felt a HUGE sense of relief wash over me.  Twins would have been fun, but there also would have been a lot more risk involved to both them and me.  A single pregnancy is the best for baby and mom and I really am so thankful that though we put in 2 what was meant for us was one.  There is a small part of me that wonders about that other embryo…was it a chromosomal thing, did it just not find a good spot on my uterus, did my body just only allow one…who will ever know and I won’t dwell on it, but I am just so thankful to have 1 healthy, strong growing baby!  Thank you, God!!!  This is the greatest gift I could ever possibly dream of!

And…I get to officially graduate to my regular OB!  Yeah!  We are SOOO excited to have appointments closer to home and no more paying out of pocket for everything!  It’s the small things, right? : ) But, of course, we would do it all over again in a heartbeat!

Thanks for all your support!  It means the world to me!


Houston, we have a diagnosis!

Yes, that was an exclamation point after that word.  Clarification though:  a potential diagnosis!  Why it has taken this long to figure it out, I am not sure.  At the same time, to have a diagnosis is always a mixed bag of emotions. Perhaps, I shouldn’t be so excited to say that we have one, but I have really disliked waffling through the world of “unexplained” infertility.  There is ALWAYS a reason for the season.  Somewhere, somehow, someway, SOMETHING can explain our infertility.  We just didn’t know what it was, until today.

Ok.  Stop, back up…

First off, YEAH for getting the ball rolling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For the first time in months, I woke up both excited and hopeful about our day.  I am grateful to have the opportunity to pursue IVF.  Of course, I wish it didn’t have to come to this, but it has, so here we are.  It feels really good to be moving forward.

Ok.  Back to the diagnosis part.

My ultrasound revealed a 25mm cyst on the right side consistent with endometriosis.  There it is, a potential diagnosis.  I had a cyst on my ultrasound (U/S)  in February – but that U/S was done at my OB/GYN’s office and they felt it was a hemorrhagic cyst left over from my previous cycle.  Nothing to be too concerned about and very normal. But this one was different, it was “dense” and appeared to be the big E.

I have seen endometriosis.  I have seen its devastating effects upon a women’s body, tiny little spider looking areas of tissue and adhesions that can really distort her abdominal cavity.  I have seen these pictures so many times on the video monitor in the operating room while giving anesthesia to a woman undergoing laparoscopy for infertility or suspected endometriosis related to intense pain during various points of her menstrual cycle.  Laparoscopy is the gold standard for diagnosis of endometriosis – direct visualization of these formations. There is no definitive way for them to know for sure I have this without doing one, but it is quite certain.  My cyst is not large enough that it necessitates an operation, so that is a tremendous blessing.  Everything else on my ultrasound was perfectly normal and my lab results came back normal as well.

Though many of you may think its crazy to want a diagnosis of some sorts, especially this one, I can’t tell you how good it feels to have this whole infertility battle be validated.  It is no longer futile in my mind.  Try as we may, endometriosis, through its various mechanisms, can render a woman infertile.  Of course, I wish it wasn’t this way just like I wish we didn’t need to do IVF, but this is the road we have been given to walk.  We can work with endometriosis. 

Next Monday we have our mock embryo transfer and our doppler ultrasound to look at my uterine blood flow…AND we receive our IVF calendar.  Looks like we are gearing up for the end of June, beginning the medications on Day 3 of our next cycle.

Thank you all for your tremendous support.


Here is a fantastic link about endometriosis and infertility: